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“She doesn’t get it, does she?”

“No,” Esme said, sitting next to Rosalie on her bed and patting her shoulder.  “I’m sure she doesn’t mean to hurt us… maybe she can’t remember our sad stories—we told them to her when she was human, after all.”

“That’s no excuse!  She didn’t seem to appreciate how much it hurt us to watch her when she was pregnant, either, and she was human then.”

Esme sighed.  She wanted to give Bella the benefit of the doubt, but it was becoming increasingly difficult. 

“And the fact she had the nerve to name her after you!”

“I thought it was a kind gesture…”

“It was so fake,” Rosalie spat.  “How many times has she talked to you, Esme?  Just you, not when we’re together as a family?”

“At the baseball game, when I told her about my … baby…”

“Exactly!  The first day we met her!  That’s the last time she’s talked to you.  She’s never sought any kind of a relationship with you, and then she names her baby after you like it’s a testament to your bond.  What bond?  She only has the time of day for Edward and maybe Alice.  Or Carlisle if she’s injured because she’s too good to go to the ER like a normal human.  It’s sucking up.  It’s ‘here, I’m getting everything you ever wanted, but at least you can share part of her white trash made-up name!’”

“Rosalie!”

“I’m tired of pretending I’m okay with this,” Rosalie said.  “I’m trying to be good for Nessie’s sake—it’s not her fault she was born to such oblivious parents or that she was cursed just like we are.  I feel so awful for her.”

“But Nessie has no idea what it means to be human,” Esme reasoned.  “It doesn’t make it any less sad from our perspective, but at least the poor child has no concept of what she’s missing.”

“It would just be nice if Bella didn’t have to rub it in our faces, you know?  If she could shut up for two seconds about how amazing  and special and perfect her daughter is and how blissful it feels to be a mom.”  Rosalie’s golden eyes flashed with fury.  “SHE DIDN’T EVEN WANT IT, ESME!  I tried to be nice and warn her, and she told me she’d never want anything more than Edward, that children were what I wanted but not what she wanted.  And then she gets to be a mom and I don’t.  YOU don’t.  It’s not fair.”

“I know, darling,” Esme soothed gently.  “I know.”

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chillaxalot:

oh shaaiit

Bella knew about vampires when she wasn’t supposed to (New Moon), still hadn’t been turned into a vampire as promised (Eclipse), created a half-vampire baby despite knowing Immortal Children were forbidden (they aren’t the exact same thing but she didn’t know that when she insisted on carrying the vampire baby to term), gathered an “army” against the Volturi, and allied with werewolves (okay, so they aren’t Children of the Moon, but you can’t deny that the Quileutes are meant to destroy vampires).  And yet the Volturi let her and everyone she knows go. How many chances was that?But Irina gives testimony she thought was true, and is killed.Bree is completely innocent and was simply recruited in a vampire army against her will, and is killed.

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chillaxalot:

oh shaaiit

Bella knew about vampires when she wasn’t supposed to (New Moon), still hadn’t been turned into a vampire as promised (Eclipse), created a half-vampire baby despite knowing Immortal Children were forbidden (they aren’t the exact same thing but she didn’t know that when she insisted on carrying the vampire baby to term), gathered an “army” against the Volturi, and allied with werewolves (okay, so they aren’t Children of the Moon, but you can’t deny that the Quileutes are meant to destroy vampires).  And yet the Volturi let her and everyone she knows go.

How many chances was that?

But Irina gives testimony she thought was true, and is killed.
Bree is completely innocent and was simply recruited in a vampire army against her will, and is killed.

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Protagonist-Centered Morality

This relates to this whole idea of no one really caring about the red-eyed vampires eating people as long as they stick around to testify for Renesmee.  It’s an interesting article in general, and Twilight is one of their examples:

One of the biggest complaints against the Twilight series is how pretty much everyone who disagrees with Bella is instantly demonized to some extent while Bella suffers no repercussions for treating others like crap. Charlie opposed Bella and Edward’s relationship because, well, if your only daughter suddenly came home one day and tells you she wants to marry a guy who had left her heartbroken and nearly suicidal once before, you’d be worried. Her mother just wants her to give more thought about going to college before settling down. Her friends from her school who came around pretty much every day while she had her Heroic BSOD and seemed to genuinely care for her well-being? She just thought they were getting annoying; so did the author.

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She looks happier in her nightmare wedding. 

and prettier

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missfenway:

every time i see the preview for breaking dawn part 2 i get so angry.  when bella says, “after eighteen years of being utterly ordinary” i want to punch her in the stomach.  it makes me sick that someone like her is a role model for so many girls these days.  i mean, how does it make them all feel when they can’t be vampires and have to remain “utterly ordinary”?



This is EXACTLY my problem with Vampire Bella.  How about valuing yourself as you are/as a human rather than only learning to think you are worth something once you are given supernatural powers?

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light4dawn:

And here’s one of them:

Bella should have been as bloodthirsty as the rest. If you can’t explain definitively why she wasn’t, then it should never have been. THEN, she should have killed Charlie. Now, that’s worth getting all depressed about, Bella! It would also be a much more interesting story and message about doing everything to not accept who you are!

That’s all I wanted!  Some consequences for Bella’s choices instead of her just having reward after reward heaped on her.  It didn’t even have to be Charlie.  It could have been Mike Newton or Angela Weber or any of the humans—it would have given them a reason to exist in the story at all since in they end they just vanish and had nothing to do with the plot.

I’m not saying it couldn’t have still been a happy ending after she worked through her kill, but there really needed to be SOME downside to being a vampire.  Every. Single. Thing. everyone warned her about ended up not applying to her.  The only thing she lost was contact with her mother, but she had basically given that up anyway when she moved away in the first place.  

Or maybe Renesmee could have killed someone.  That would have worked too. It’s just after three books of hearing how ~hard it is to resist, how lonely and sad it is to be a vampire, suddenly it’s a magical wonderful fairytale for Bella.  It’s like: what was the big deal, then?  Why was Edward so against turning her when she was destined for it and is perfect and amazing and awesome?  Argh. 

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What does the title refer to? Is it a werewolf reference?

Nope. The term “new moon” refers to the phase of the moon opposite a full moon. It is when the sun is on the opposite side of the moon from us and thus the bright side of the moon is not visible from earth. This is the darkest kind of night. New Moon is the darkest period of Bella’s life.

The darkest period of Bella’s life?  Really?  I mean, I guess since she’s only 18 there’s not a whole like of competition for “darkest.”  But it seems really callous to compare Bella’s suffering in New Moon to the ‘darkest periods’ of, like, virtually any other character.

Darkest period of Alice’s life: being institutionalized in a sketchy asylum and being locked in a dark cell and essentially tortured.

Darkest period of Rosalie’s life: Being raped and beaten to death and then becoming a vampire and having to give up all her hopes and dreams.

Darkest period of Jasper’s life: 90 years with a bloodthirsty vampire army.

Darkest period of Carlisle’s life: months spent trying—in vain—to kill himself when he realized he had become a vampire.

Darkest period of Esme’s life: Escaping a physically abusive marriage to spare her unborn child a life of abuse, only to have him die at three days old.

Darkest period of Bella’s life: being without Edward for six months.

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Does the Twilight Saga Endorse Its Own Story?

Interesting article… I’ve wondered about this too.  I mean pretty much the whole point of the book and movie Eclipse is everyone and their vampire sister telling Bella why becoming a vampire and making “hard and fast” decisions at 18 is a dumb idea.

You’ve got Jake warning her, you’ve got Rosalie and Jasper warning her, you’ve for her mom and dad cautioning her, you’ve got Jessica’s graduation speech, you’ve got the sad story of little Bree… and then at the end of the movie, Bella’s like, welp, I still totes want to be a vampire, let’s do this.

However, I disagree that Breaking Dawn is a rebuttal or a “be careful what you wish for” scenario for Bella because I am firmly, firmly, firmly convinced that SM sees the whole baby/living forever/imprinting/superpowers thing as a happy, happy, happy ending.  I think the discrepancy comes from, again, the fact that SM wrote the outline of Breaking Dawn before she wrote Eclipse.  Eclipse makes sense as a follow-up of New Moon, with Bella worrying about her future and what it will mean to join the ranks of the bloodsucking undead. 

But Eclipse makes NO sense as a prequel to Breaking Dawn, where suddenly everything everyone warned Bella about: losing her friends, her family, the bloodlust, the newborn wildness, not getting to have children does not apply to her.  What was the point of all that then?

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iluvmormonvampires:

…then why doesn’t Bella have to spend eternity looking like an anorexic meth addict?

That’s how she looked when she was changed, so that’s how she should look as a vampire, right? She should be stuck for eternity looking emaciated, sickly and like she’s just given birth. Why does she get her normal body type back? How does vampire venom know what an ideal body type is? Stephenie, Stephenie… yes, it is your world. But you can’t keep reinventing the “rules” of a fictional universe once they are established.

This this this this this!  Esme is more “rounded and soft” than other vampire women because she was changed so soon after having her baby, Alice is “thin in the extreme” with close-cropped hair from her time in the asylum… but Bella gets a full-body makeover.  How on earth is this consistent with the rules she already had in place?

It was my impression that venom makes you more beautiful… but it can only work with what you’ve already got.  James was an ugly human so he’s only ‘average’ as a vampire.  Venom could like, straighten a crooked nose or fix a lazy eye… but if Alice didn’t get her body restored to a healthy weight, why did Bella?

MM